Ah Love, Love...

What is it with love
Thats makes me
Then breaks me?

When in love
Do i truly love?

Is it really love
Or do i think i love?

Maybe i just love being in love
Or love the idea of being in love?

I spent my whole life chasing love
In the end the one thing i truly love
Could just be the meir pursuit of love.

to myself..

If i cannot forgive myself for all the blunders
That i have made over the years
Then how can i proceed?
How can i ever dream perfection dreams?
Move, i must, forward
Fly, i must, upward
Dive, i must, inward
To be one more
What i truly am
and shall forever remain.

heart & hurt

Waiting is painful.
Forgetting is painful.
But not knowig which to do is the worse kind of suffering...

i set him free..

Suffering occurs when we want other people to love us in the way we imagine we want to be loved and not in the way that love should menifest itself free & untrammeled guiding us with its force & driving us on.

me & coffee

The coffee bean changes the hot water, the very circumstances that brings the pain
When the water gets hot, it release the fragrance & flavor. ..
If you are like the bean, when things are at their worst, you get better & change the situation around you.